ok, this is the easiest place to do this, so here's where it's gonna be.

veronica told me to ask myself questions about why i'm avoiding writing this letter (one which asks people to hire me, even though they've never met me).

i've been mulling it over, and i think the main thing is that i don't know what to say. i don't have much experience, so the only thing that makes me compelling to hire is that i'm free labor. but if that isn't much of an asset, i wouldn't be surprised. sometimes it can be hard to manage people you're not paying, and some of them think that because they're not getting paid, they don't have to perform at the same level as those getting paid. so i can totally see how, at times, that's possibly not any better, and they'd rather pay me a pittance than nothing? which just brings me back to the part where i don't know how in hell i'm supposed to seem compelling.

i guess maybe that's it. until i feel i've created a compelling portfolio, i don't have much to say. actually, it would probably be smart to finish the portfolio. what i really need to finish is the css & html for my tumblr. and the friend questionnaire. that will be a lot of fun, and i know i can dispatch it throughout tumblr and people will have a blast with it (well, certain types of people... some people won't get it, since it's intentionally very nerdy).

and also i really need to make stuff and sell it on etsy. i so *can* do this, i just really need to brainstorm and take all this absorption-of-cuteness-and-awesomeness that i do so often, and turn it around and make stuff happen. speaking of motivation, i don't want to go to therapy today! i want to make art and play video games. and if amy gets home from work early, that will be fabulous. it'll make up for the lost time from yesterday! but, okay, best be on my way. it'll take me a minute to get out the door, after all.